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ExistenceI guess, I exist
the faint me
didn't enter all exits.
A bit less
my life's a mist
no need to flee
Just onceI once felt the hatred,
I once heard the lies,
I once felt the burden,
Of my character's demise,
I once sat there stunned,
I once sat there cold,
I once sat there watching,
My very life become old,
I once saw the world,
I once opened my eyes,
I once told myself,
That it'd be alright,
I once was wrong,
I once came home,
I once again had a world,
That wouldn't leave me alone,
And then in retrospect...
I once was happy,
I once truly smiled,
I once heard my laughter,
Now it's been a while,
I once felt sadness,
I once had trauma within,
I once found a fear which,
Traumatised my very skin,
I once went online,
I once found some friends,
I once had proper friendships,
Severed only at our ends,
I once found people,
I once had a will,
I once had friends,
For me to protect... until...
I once met my end,
I once fell asleep,
I once lived it fully,
Before sleeping so deep,
Just once will I feel this,
Just once from above,
Wandering HeistsOnce upon a tranquil lore, whispering upon trepid serenity,
billows winds that sweep by, past the starry sky.
I speak of orange and red, and yellow melancholy,
in the blistering breeze, that seems to bring freeze.
Many a time have my eyes gone weak,
many a time have I felt so bleak--
when mountains fell, and rivers reeked,
I sought for joy; happiness I seeked.
Oh, but bittersweet—November has come once more!
The graves seem brighter than ever before,
from underneath, was a sliver, but so,
through the coffin, nothing but a silver mist—a spirit tore.
I speak of a sky painted with the colour of blood,
a time of sorrows and horrid woes,
I speak of a time filled with salty tears, of knees that trod,
of a time when graves became rigid—standing still in rows.
Once upon a tranquil lore,
concealed by scorn and mourn,
the dead have come alive seeking nothing but remorse
drowned by the endless void, throughout their inner cores.
A painful mix of tears and longing,
came from the
.For all my friends, whether close or casual, just because.
One of the longest post I will ever do, and the most real too. Everyone will go through some hard times at some point.
Life isn't easy.
Just something to think about.
Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive?
Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most?
Did you know the three hardest things to say are I love you, I'm sorry, and help me?
Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile to see how much pain they may be in.
To all my friends who are going through some issues right now--let's start an intention avalanche.
We all need positive intentions right now.
If I don't see your name, I'll understand.
May I ask my friends wherever you might be, to kindly copy and paste this for one hour to give a moment of support
How could you be so heartless?Heartless woman I am
You claim I'm the one who left you
You did no wrong
You said you showed how much of a man you are
I didn't have the soul to see it in you
I made unclear decisions
I should be one who need to apologize
I need to keep my promises
But can't we set this drama aside and talk?
I'm sick of you not being able to hear my side
I'm tired of crying along to the broken hearted songs
I'm done begging for forgiveness
Hear my story
Listen to me
I did gave you everything I could
I loved you sincerely
I stayed strong for you
You only did the sweet talks
You flirt with a touch
You cockblock when I spoke with someone I'm not interested
You hardly showed the love
I can't help but wanting to blame you for turning me cold
You made me heartless
Before you walk out and continue to tell the world I'm heartless
Take a second
Cut out all these nonsense
Sit down and talk to me
The darkness that I had lived in.This dark age to where I had lived
all my life I had been drowned in a black sea
to which I could not find the light to see.
Every day I dread
Knowing that I would always be alone
I had accepted this as my fate
to which I had only tooken the bate
to forever stay here
I let the dark grow in within me
letting it take my body and soul
to know that no one now will lend me a hand
as for I had became a killer to man
The blood that had stained I
only got cousumed by the darkness that I bore
it burnt me right down to the core
For the flame inside had went out and to be never lit again
Why did My life turn out to be this?
Why did I accept that this was alright?
I may not be dying
I only long for someone,
someone to just stay by my side.
Someone to be the light in my dark
with these feeling which I can not bark.
Though I did have one
one person to stay with me
if I liked it or not he was always there
To be continued:
The broken doll
What does it take?What does it take
to describe how I feel?
Pain or crying,
I'll go through it all,
Anything for you,
I'll go through the worst,
And thereafter hide,
All that I ask is that
I get to be by your side,
Because all of this,
Is nothing compared to,
How long I must spend here,
Living without you.
Tell me..Tell me what i ever did wrong?
Tell me everything i never tried?
Tell me why the world didn't want us?
Tell me something that will make me feel something..
Its ment to hurt.
I'm ment to feel something that makes me scream in pain.
I'm ment to fucking hate you, for not being the person i thought..
Wanted you to be.
Here's the thing..
I don't feel anything but relief..
Tell me why?
one plus one is threeone day
I said I was gonna write about you
because you’re you
and you deserve words that shatter glass and topple empires and raise hell and heaven and make people think
because that’s what you’re capable of
so I sat at my laptop
and I thought about you
I couldn’t write
I sat and thought for hours
and all I came up with was an incorrect math problem and a blank Word document
and I couldn’t figure out why
and then I talked to you
for the first time in ages
and I figured it out
you are so much more
so much more than the keys on my laptop could handle
so much more than six copper strings could take
I wanted to compare you to the stars but you’re so much more than the space in between them
so much more than ink and dead trees and all the carbon dioxide they ever took
so much more than oxygen, carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, so much more than everything it took to make you
so much more than a cliché, more than English or Spanish or
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